head vs heart...

hi readers, followers and subscribers... (friends and family...) i want to apologize... my head and my heart are at war, since the past "i don't know how many" weeks... i just can't get them on one line, at least not in a short period of time... that's the reason why i have been posting posts and videos like on and off... (that's the reason why i'm so moody and energy-loos...) and also... all those password protected post... i am sorry if i made some of you curious... i just needed a place to scream it out.

sooo... i wanted to let you all know, that i think, that i need some time to get things straight... to get myself to cooperate with myself... so i might not make any or make less videos for a while... also... i probably won't be able to make any in november... because i will be visiting hong kong again for 2,5 weeks (4 november - 22 november 2011)...

but i have some exciting news: i will visit the yesstyle hq in hong kong!! yeay... i am so excited to meet the yesstyle crew... i will try to share my hong kong trip with you all... after.

hopefully i can pick up everything after my vacation... and do even better than before...

for now... i might keep posting here, now and then... not sure, but... one thing, that i can promise, is that i will be back XD so... please bear with me... for now.

wish me luck ^^

much <3 xxx

30 day clothes and accessories challenge: day 7

i didn't had time to post, sooo...

today's picture... a cute outfit!

it's a at home outfit. and i will be posting the tutorials soon (youtube)! ^^

sketches are just sketches...

when i was looking for inspiration, i looked back on what i've made so far... i have 38 diy vids in total... out of all... i love my oversized bow top the most... though i was having a rough period, while i was making it, i gave it my all... i've hand stitched the whole top and made it as neat as i could... one of the things i've made from scratch...  *proud at myself* XD can't wait to wear it again ^^

so looking at that top, gave me inspiration to do more tops... since it's spring already, and summer will be coming up soon (time flies)... i decided to do some spring/summer tees... and as i remember, some of you have requested more tee diys... so last friday, i grabbed some h&m tees from the male section... hopefully i can use these for my designs...

here are some sketches i've made... (i know they look awfully bad XD i'm bad at drawing fashion pieces...) i normally don't make any sketches, i usually just make them from what i have in mind... but since i'm very busy... and am not sure when i'm going to create them... i was afraid to forget about them... sooo... i sketched my designs... though they kinda look different from how i have them in mind, they kind of help me remember how i want to sew everything in place...

i'm not sure yet if i am going to make them all... but... you can expect some spring/summer diys soon ^^

have a great night everyone...

ps. i love my 2 fishes at the side, tehee... they are too cute... >>

one for myself ^^

i made this furry hood... if you've watched my diy scoody vid, you might know how... instead of the scarf part, i attached a braided string with a furry ball XD on each side...

i used furry material, that i've cut out from a furry tube scarf... and used the same fleece fabric for the lining... it's cute, nice and warm...

i'm gonna look for other furry materials and might remake this... tutorial wanted anyone?

the from me to you give away winners

thanks to everyone who participated my give away!! i'm going to announce the winners on youtube very soon ^^

i enjoyed reading all the mails... and because of all your feedback, i know somewhat about what you think about my channel and video's... it really helped me out and i'll try to do my best, to keep my videos as best as i can ^^

in this post, besides thanking you all, i would like to answer the questions that has been asked in the entry mails... (the questions might be edited a bit by me...)

can i request diy (tee) tutorials?
ofcourse you can, but i just can't guarantee you that any requested videos will be made, because ie. i don't have any tees lying around... and because i lack time... i've been very busy ever since i started working...

what are you majoring in school, if you are still attending school?
my major is communication and multimedia design... i studied for interaction/concept/functional design... i'm more focused on user centered design...

can you show us things for guys?
i don't have any guy-diy ideas... and i tried to find more guys that would like to participate in my videos, but they are so hard to find... i sometimes, still blog about guys clothing, if that's what you are interested in, i will try to blog more about guys clothing too...

what other stuff can do besides clothes and folding origimi?
hmmm that's a hard question... i'm actually not sure what else i can do... :x


why don't you talk in your videos?
first of all, it's because of my accent, it's probably hard to understand what i'm saying... second, i'm not a very talkative person, i'm more if a silent thinker... and i have a slow reaction... when i think of something to say, it might take up to a few minutes before it actually comes out my mouth... and third... english isn't my best language... so that makes it even harder to spontaneously talking in english...

why is the quality of your videos so low
it actually has improved allready since i got my new laptop... i can save as better quality, but i couldn't get it online... i tried several times... and also... i noticed that the quality is slightly reduced after uploading...

can you list in the description box where to get the materials you use?
i'll try to from now on, but i think that all my used items can be bought at a craft store or fabric store...

can you tell us what song you used?
i'm allready doing that... most of the time, i list the used songs in the description box... sometimes, it just happens that i don't know the exact song name or artist...

where are you from? you look asian...
i am asian... i am chinese, born in the netherlands. my parents are originally from hong kong...

maybe you could do some fall / winter /spring /summer fashion video?
yes, when i have the inspiration i would like to make those kind of video sometime... ^^

can you speak? i would like to hear your voice...
actually i allready have a talking video up, it was my introduction video...

can you do more ootd videos?
i want to, but sometimes it's just not interesting enough to show... i really have "periods"... ie. i'm really loving shorts with knit tights at the moment, and i'm trying to wear that same style as long as possible... till i get tired of it, or just till it doesn't fit the season anymore...

can you do make-up videos?
i can only do hauls and reviews, i can't do tutorials... first i'm not that great with make-up... and second, my video quality is just too sucky...

what is your dog's name?
his name is ka lee (he has a chinese name), ka means home/family and lee means going well/smooth...

did you know that bird's wouldn't be able to fly if they sweated?
no i didn't, i actualy didn't know birds would sweat too XD thanks for letting me know about this funny fact ^^

do you wear the things you make?
yes i do... ^^ i especially love my oversized bow top... missing the nice weather, so i can wear it out again...

where would you like to shop?
that would the us!! i see so many great hauls on youtube... and they got stores over there which we don't have here...

where is the best place to shop?
i have to say online... online i can always find what i want... and shopping in real stores, it would be just a guess if i would be able to come back home with something...

where do you get your inspirations everywhere and nowhere... sometimes i get inspired by the things i see around me... and even the things i already have in my closet... i'll be thinking, wouldn't it be great if this would have different sleeves... i'll edit or remake it if it's possible... so i can change something more to my own likings...

what bands/music do you usually listen to?
i'm really loving advanced 7 fold at the moment... and i like... lmf, mika nakashima, tokyo jihen, shiina ringo, hyde...

how are you so pretty?
i actually can't answer this question, pretty is just an opinion... so instead, you should ask yourself, why you think i'm pretty, then you'll have your answer ^^

what made you decided to create a youtube? was it for hopes of becoming a guru, or just out of unintentional fun?
i was just curious when i first started... and i thought i could do a video, that no one has done yet... and i was actually pretty surprised with the positive comments... so i decided to do more... and more... and more... and it's also a lot of fun to do it... great way to kill time when you have to much time on your hands...

do you like anime?
yes, i do... i haven't really watched many though... some of my favorites are nana, fruits basket, full metal alchemist, scrapped princess, midori no hibi, great teacher onizuka, golden boy...

out of all the different types of video's you do whats your favorite?
my diys, it's like releasing my creativity... experimenting... and after that it would be my ootd/outfits, i love to dress up, when i have the time to do it... ^^

have you ever dyed your hair? ^^
i tried to home dye it once, but my hair didn't adsorb the color... what i have now is my original hair color... and i'm not planning on dying my hair, just because i like it natural... and it's more healthy ^^

whats you most favorite food?
that's a hard one, because i love food so much... i got too many favorites... i think it would have been easier to ask what i don't like to eat :p

what are to places you would love to travel to?
i don't have much knowledge about traveling yet... but i would like to travel to all the peaceful places... places with a nice view, or places where i can shop, places where i can enjoy myself... etc. (it feels like, i haven't actually answered your question... i'm sorry XD)

are you going to be doing more hauls?
i probably won't do more... but... i'll keep doing them... i will when i got nice new stuff to show ^^

what part of china are you?
hong kong ^^

how old did you turn?
26 -_- btw... thanks for all the b-day wishes... you all are too nice <3

that's all for the questions... thanks again everyone... ^^

please bare with me and be a little patient with me announcing the winners, i do have to apologize for taking so long -_-

have a great night people... <3
or day... or evening ^^

oversized tops/knits/cardigans...

i'm in love with oversized tops... and i finally found the perfect one at h&m... since i wanted to try some out before buying overseas, i decided to not get any online yet...

but now that i tried some out, i'll know what kind of oversized tops i like... since i'm not like model-skinny... an oversized top can easily make me look big or bulky... but i find that tops with bigger necklines doesn't do that as much... so... i started to look on yesstyle for oversized tops/knits/cardigans...

here are my picks <3

nr.01
oversized knit cardigan
(stylewardrobe) 74,10usd


nr.02
v-neck oversized top
(frenchgirl) 36,10usd


nr.03
long-sleeve scoopneck oversized top
(shy shy) 17,28usd


nr.04
oversized fleece cardigan
(redopin) 68,40usd


nr.05
oversized draped cardigan
(redopin) 57,00usd


lastly, one with a smaller neckline... i'm not sure if this will fit me well, but it looks mad-good on the model... <3

nr.06
long-sleeve oversized t-shirt
(youareagirl) 30,40usd


men has nice tops and cardigans too, to wear it oversized... ^^

(btw giveaway winners will be up as soon as i have time, i'll try to do it tomorrow...)

from me to you give away update

thanks to everyone who have entered my give away so far... i've read every e-mail i've received (till now)... they were all nice to read... <3... i probably won't be able to reply before the ending of the give away... and i might answer some (frequently) asked questions in de winners video...

and for everyone who asked about how many times you can enter... one entry per person... i want everyone to have even chance to win...

haven't you enter yet? it's easy to, just e-mail me at ljenmf@gmail.com with feedback about my video's/channel and your youtube username... it doesn't have to be a long mail... just be honest and straight, but you can always add a little fun to it if you want ^^ for more details about my give away, read my previous blogpost...

btw. i got some nice winter inspired diy idea's... so that will be coming up whenever i'll be having time... expect at least one diy this month...

enjoy your day... much love... x jen

my first giveaway ^^ (closed)

i got something to give... i'm going to hold my first giveaway... yeay... the reasons... it's been 17 months ago, when i've first uploaded my very first video... i've passed 7000 subscribers ^^... it's almost my b-day again -_-... and ofcourse to thank you all...

so what can you win? 2 yesstyle coupons, 50usd each... so there will be 2 winners... (i still need to get my hands on the coupons, but yesstyle already agreed on making those for me...)

it's easy to enter... just mail me at ljenmf@gmail.com...

1. give me feedback... tell me anything you like or do not like... anything that can help me improve...
2. give me your youtube username... so i can find you on youtube...
3. and it would be fun if you can tell me something and/or ask me anything... ^^ it can be random...

to enter, you do have to be my subscriber... and be sure that you can use the coupon... check if you can actually order on yesstyle.com, if they will ship to you etc. because i won't be responsible of your order... i would be willing to help though.

how i will choose the winners? i will be using random.org to pick 2 random winners... i will announce the winners on youtube... and will be contacted on youtube... if the winner won't answer within a week, i will give the price to someone else... so be aware of that... if they will... i will send you an e-mail with your price ^^

this giveaway ends 26th november 2010 59:00pm dutch time... google if you need to... i will anounce the winners as soon as possible...

good luck everyone!!

received yesstyle order (4)

i placed a sponsored order begin this month... and i've received my package today... yeay ^^

i ordered this vest, it's a cropped vest with dolman sleeves... very cute ^^ the fabric is thin and that's what makes it nice, the way the fabric hangs is just too pretty :) i'm excited to wear and to create different outfits with this :)

1. dolman sleeve hooded cardigan
brand: moul style
size: one size
material: cotton blend
price: 32usd
color: black



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then i ordered 3 pants... they look all 3 almost the same, but i knew they were different... and i hoped that at least one would look nice on me... i'm not sure yet what to think of these pants on me... they kinda make me look short... better be wearing heels with these... out of the 3, i like the gray one the most (the cheepest out of the 3 :p), mostly because the draping is on the front... and the black ones have the draping on the sides

3. tapered pants
brand: moul style
size: one size
material: cotton
price: 35usd
color: black



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4. tapered pants
brand: blue is
size: one size
material: cotton, polyester
price: 35usd
color: black



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yes, i'm wearing 2 different shoes in this picture :p

5. sweatpants
brand: hoodya
size: one size
material: cotton
price: 18usd
color: black



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other than that i don't like the legs of the pants... they are not fitted around my ankle... i have to do something about that before actually wearing these...



i ordered 2 pair of flat sandals, they look the same on the website, but are different in price...

i got them in different colors... in black and in brown... now that i have them in my hands, i can definitely see the difference...

the shoes came in dustbags with yesstyle on it...



6. lace-up high top sneakers
brand: holly shoes
size: 245
material: synthetic leather
price: 52usd
color: brown



7. lace-up high top sandals
brand: miz shoes
size: 245
material: synthetic leather, polyester blend
price: 65usd
color: black



the difference? can you see them?





the shape of the soles are different... the laces of the brown shoes are longer than the black ones... the material looks different too... the black one has more the look of leather than the brown one... the black one feels softer than the brown one too... the heels are slightly different too... and... the inner sole is different too... the black one is made from the same material as the outer part of the shoe, as the brown one had a more velvet like material as inner sole...



one more thing... the innersole of the brown ones aren't glued well :x but that's not a problem... it can be easily fixed with superglue ^^

that's all :) any questions? leave a comment...

outfit 2010 04 29

i am wearing:



black tanktop - ? // diy loose off the shoulder top - h&m // black shorts - from hk // polka dot tights - h&m // lace up heels - yesstyle // ring - van liev



i wore this outfit to a dinner with a friend :P we went for sushi ^^ the weather was ok when i got there... but it started to rain when i was about to head home -_- and it was queensnight, so the streets and the station were really crowded...

so yesterday was queensday... haha i don't like queensday at all :X too much people... crazy people, drunk people... but i did have a super nice day... i stayed away from the crowd... ^^

and back to the job i applied for last time... it's actually an internship (don't remember if i've mentioned that)... but i'm starting this coming monday ^^ i'm so excited! :P i will be working 4 days a week... so i will be having enough free time to make video's and other enjoyable things :) i will do a short random video soon... a quick room tour instead of just my wardrobe (my wardrobe is a big part of my room anyways... haha) and some new stuff i got (mini haul)... and something i learned from my brothers gf... (i think that was quite interesting)...

that's all for today... enjoy your day/night... i'm going to have some breakfast :)~

there is nothing wrong with showing a little bit bra ^^

wow... it's been a while since i've blogged and posted a video!! but you know what?! i feel great now!! hehe... i've been busy looking for a job... and i finally have an appointment for a job interview... i'm so excited!!

and other than that... i also have a few planned video's :) there will be a new diy vest video again! :D and... maybe a mini haul and showing some cute stuff i got ^^ and maybe my job interview ootd? hehe

also... my new wardrobe is almost coming! next saturday ^^ can't wait :D i might do a vid about that too, and showing some favorite items?!

hmmm... and... yea... my ootd ^^ there is nothing wrong with showing a little bit bra if the bra is nice and you're not wearing a tiny short skirt :D don't you agree??



i'm wearing:
white lace bra (after eden)
blue buttoned cardigan (vero moda/only)
white zipper cardigan (yesstyle)
blue skinny jeans (bershka)

that's it for now :) next time again ^^ have a great easter everyone ;) xxx

received yesstyle order (3)

i ordered this order on 4 march 2010, and it was shipped out on 9 march... the actual shipping by dhl was on 11 march... i expected the package on 12 march, but dhl made a mistake and brought my package to the wrong location... so because of the weekend, i received it on monday the 15th... that's quite fast... i was surprised ^^

what i ordered...

1. double-breasted blazer
brand: dizzy darling
size: m
material: cotton and polyester
price: 48usd

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i actually couldn't really see how it looks on the picture that i found on the website... but what made me order is because it was double breasted... the skull pattern... and the fact that it's a black fitted blazer... since i don't have one yet...

my pictures:









it's a really thin blazer, which i think is perfect for this spring and summer... i sooo love the skull pattern ^^ skulls are cute :) but what i don't like is... is that the blazer isn't that fitted around my waist... but that's ok... i like to wear it unbuttoned... and also... the lower part of the sleeves are kinda tight... i can only fold it one time... or do i have some chubby underarms? :X

2. fitted jacket
brand: l'miusa
size: m
material: cottonblend
price: 38usd

website picture:



this fitted jacket looks really cute on the website picture :) and i love blazers type of things with cute pattern on the inner... and the stud-buttons looks totally nice...

my pictures:





the jacket had bigger stud-buttons on the front... and 3 smaller stud-buttons on the sleeves... but i don't like the ones on the sleeves... so i took them off... since i would like to wear it with folded sleeves anyways... i also got 1 of each size button for backup :)



and again... this jacket wasn't nicely fitted on my waist... i should have get the smaller size... but i couldn't anyways, since it was already out of stock... :X and again, it looks cute unbuttoned with a pair of skinny jeans ^^





3. drawstring ankle boots
brand: pinky rose
size: 39
material: synthetic leather
price: 31.50usd

website picture:



these were the boots that got canceled the last time... so i ordered it again... and yes... i ordered one size bigger... and they fit nicely with an extra inner sole... i haven't wore these yet... just because it's starting to get springy now... and in my opinion these are winter boots... but i've tried them on for a while... and they seem comfortable to me :) it has a hidden platform, which makes it a bit easier with the high heels... i like them ^^ but have to wait for next winter to wear them :X i'm glad i got them anyways... since they are kinda cheap ^^

my pictures:



quick shot when i just received the package...



last but not least...

4. lace-up platform ankle boots
brand: twofb
size: 245
material: synthetic leather
price: 70usd

website picture:



what really caught my eye on this pair is the spingy/summery look on these boots ^^ and also the fun looking platform ^^ and ofcourse... i'm so loving lace-up boots! as you might have noticed all the shoes i've recently ordered ^^

my pictures:





when i first got these in my hand... i didn't like them that much... it looks really big... and the heels! i expected to be more of a woody heel... but instead... it looks platicky and has a wooden pattern printed on it :X but as i wore them for the first time... i started to like them a lot... again... i got it a size bigger and am wearing it with an extra inner sole... so comfy ^^ and it looks so nice with browns :D



though i found one problem... but maybe it's just me? when i walk, i seem to scratch my shoes against each other... :X i actually have no idea how to explain this... but... yea... the zipper thingy is scratching the shoes while i walk... so after two days of wearing... the boots allready got scratched up... :( is it me? or does other people have these problems too? i don't have it with other shoes though... but i don't really had shoes with zippers on the sides before... but i love them anyways ^^

i am sorry for the delay of this post, i wanted to do it much earlier... cause now the first 3 items got out of stock already... :X and i have no idea if they come back in stock...

ow and btw ^^ there is a sale going on... the menswear are up to 50% off ^^ i just received in my email inbox... and i also saw it on their facebook page...

and... like i said in my last post... i really need a wardrobe fast... and i ordered one today ^^ (sooo expensive -_-, at least for me it is :X) i actually think it will look too neat for my room, lol... but i don't care... i need it ^^ i think it will take around 2 weeks for it to arive, i can't wait ^^



ow... and fyi :) i'm not getting paid to post this on my blog... and i only do completely honest reviews... :) for questions, pm me @ youtube ^^